Where had all our cultural belongs went? 2 days ago, it was the annual Mid-Autumn Festival but there's little or hardly any people around my neighbourhood were playing with candles or carrying lit lanterns or maybe I came home too late and miss out some of the merry. Well, what I'm trying to portray here is for what I personally felt in this era now children especially the younger generation are too possessed with materials rather than cultural values. Let alone myself, I'm one of those kind who will stay out of this festi-s as far as possible because I felt that I had better things to do that is why I turned down my friends who asked me for candle playing session which I felt that was incredibly dirty and lame and thinking these are kid's stuffs.

But then, come back to comtemplate this issue I felt that the real stupidity lies in me than those who celebrate the festival with joy. Not just me okay, I personally felt that the younger generation nowadays are much more possessed in materials rather than pertaining with culture values. Probably the children maybe taught with history and folklores in school but do you think that is enough? Can you even name out which year is our world war 2? Which exact date is our dumpling festival and tell me where are they origin and what are the stories behind? I believe that every historical happening will have a paramount story which is left behind for us to have a lesson taught. However, peoples nowadays are having obsession like pc games, facebook, music, fashion, celebrities gossips etc. which are they "everyday historical" happenings. Even though this is unblamable because this is how we brought up but there should be a little more emphasized in our education. I certainly regret that during my school days, history is a weakest subject and I dropped every attention I could when the bell haven't even ring for class to end but on the other hand the more I grow the more attention I paid much to everyday.

I used to hate news, the monotone news reporter, financial news, sports but ever since I stepped into a new school things which I can't neglect is Sports because that is the only subject I major now and not only for the sake of making sense around me but also add on to more happenings which in future we might correlate them in our work. Children in this gen ought to be educate or should I say Emphasized on these important values and cultivate them since young regardless in schools or at home. I mean, it really incredibly ridiculous to see how a 6 year old who can sing and dance Justin Bieber's song and memorizing every idol's name and their lyrics instead of the knowing what to do on festive season. Regardless the fact that we are Asian or Not, I personally think that we should bear in mind of our own culture values and practice them and then passed down to the our next generation or else one day it will die out and gone because I can see that technology had taken place of a lot of things nowadays even the soul of a 6 or 7 year old kid.

Have you seen a 5 year old boy with the latest game gadget and high definition sound system cellphone? Well if you don't then please walk around the Town area where you can see rich kid munching burgurs and showing off their new gadgets their parents got for them. Fucking spoild-asses. Who cares about lanterns? Who cares about candles? They are already swaggering away with cellphones, ipods, cash and burgurs. At the same time, people might thought, I'm totally obsessed with materials too but that's really superficial because at times I do google up and understand history and I read news because at the end of the day materials won't provide you with knowledge and bring you to other dimension; which is the knowledge do.

What is marriage? Do you think that marriage still exist here when one don't oblige to the vows and break the rules but on the other hand he fufill every commitment in the family. In the aspect of life, we all are habour by first sight and didn't really see a bigger picture here but the definition of marriage to me is profess as commitment. Regardless how life turn out to be next time, once you are legally married you should bear responsible and solve problems but not accumulate as times grow till one day you can't carry anymore. Perhaps we are your commitment in the family or burden, when both worked so hard to give one to have a better level of life and little does we know each day feelings fade and bonds begin to dissolve till we had no idea and life is as tasleless as water. 

Since we are in a family of four, everyone should be responsible for the mistake here. All we could do now is to show support and love towards one another because that's the least we could salvage the family and not getting deeper. Stop putting blame to anyone because we might not want this to happen, there's no right or wrong answer because this ain't a multiple choice question. I've grown up, whatever choice one make, I'll respect and goes along with it as long as one who will be happy. Because we are family, we should think for the others before we think for ourselves and if one are happy, I'm happy. Like I say, a commitment is forever but a family is to love one another.

Young Noah: My Dearest Allie. I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I'll be seeing you. Noah

Noah: Summer romances begin for all kinds of reasons, but when all is said and done, they have one thing in common. They're shooting stars, a spectacular moment of light in the heavens, fleeting glimpse of eternity, and in a flash they're gone.

Read to me, I'll come back to you - Allie

It been exactly 2 weeks since I'm here, somehow the urge just back therefore I'm here once again updating you the stuffs you wanna hear or wanna read about me. Well, I'm officially twenty now but not yet reaching the horrified adulthood so I guess this round I pass? This year celebration was quite explicit and simple, dinner and some catch ups but still that capture the best moments in my life. Last week I had my very first dinner with Sugarrush, deeply appreciate what they had done even though we had no fanciful dinner neither expensive lightings but it was heartfelt little did I expect all of us turned up. This enough had warm my heart and I never fail to be so much happy with my girlfriends.

The 2nd celebration took place at HardRock Cafe with Tiffany and YL they all, and turn out in an unforgettable night with them because this woman xlm drank my alcohol then got herself into deep trouble with the bawl and chase after all of us. All we would remember was the exhausting run round and round in Orchard during the Wee hours like mad woman literally. Still, it was fun. Coming up the last dinner celebration I had would speculate as the best I've ever had because it was with my family and it a really rare opportunity that we had time to sit side by side in a table to eat merrily.

On the other hand, last weekdue to domestic affairs, my parents had a dispute between them and I'm so helpless and afraid because all I could do is watch and watched with no one to turn to when I'm upset. I skipped school, I cried in vain, I watched and listened because there's so much drams happening in my house. Seriously, I felt that all of a sudden life just suck and fuck my life away. Well, now the storm had ended but still there's a lot tiffs going on and on and I hate to see this but nothing I'd do. I'm so apprehensive, after going through this there's enlightenment with my realization that my one and only are; Kinship. Putting aside those really sentimental thoughts of mine, I'm really optimistic to face though at times I still dwell on especially when I'm alone.

Apart from this, today Met June & Cyj at CWP. Convinced them to watch "The last song" with me even though it entirely not their genre and June nearly fell asleep and Cyj seems so fucking bored as if he's dying but on the other hand I'm enjoying every thick and thin in the movie. I even cried when certain scenes moved me and the 2 of them kept mocking at me! Yes, it's spectacular movie! I'd reckon you to catch it if you hadn't. ha! Then suddenly when we about to part they hand me a big bag inside containing my gift. Awestricken seriously, but still thanks for the little thoughts that count. I appreciate it especially you guys accompany me throughout a "boring" movie! Right. I'm done with the catchup here. & am fucking mad exhausting as if my eye lids never get straighten up. Crash me hard tomorrow. Goodnights.

PS: life always tend to fluctuating with ups and downs and surprised me whenever it can. Time allow me to move on and grow up therefore I believe in a thing call "Hope". By Jy.

Dear Mom,

I'd like to thanks you for everything you've contributeed to this family and us. Thanks for putting up with my unreasonable airs at home, been so kind to me when I'm ill especially during the times I gotta consistently return to hospital for follow-ups and unsolicited demands from us. Maybe you'd wonder why you had a daughter with a foul mood, always blaming how ignorance you could go and reprimand you for not doing this and that because I've lost the ability to communicate with you.

To me, you're a wonderful and priceless asset to my odessy of journey. Without you, I might not be standing here. The uncondition care and love you been shower to me and LY was noble. Nothing, I believed is greater paramount than your love is measured. Even though, I loath how the way you smoked a cigarette, telling me stories about how devoted you are into your stuffs which I think is redundant but still you are the best part of me; In life. I long knew there's a distance in between but I don't mind striding in a longer pace to catchup. One last thing, Mommy I love you. Thanks for playing the role in part of my life.

Happy Mother's Day.

I'm super duper fucking pissed. I flared up and threw temper as I go, there's always a boundary to be prankish or joke around but please don't cross the line of boundary and thinking it's funny when I personally feel that it's simply not. Especially when you know this class is make up of 80% guys yet you can always be so scatteredbrained in teasing by touching, making body contacts. Personally, I don't really like it ever since the day you almost kiss me on my oily pimpled face! For god sake, I'm straight and second I already avoiding which you think its funny ah!

Maybe other girls may enjoy your presence of being touchy but not me. I'm not like a 15,16 year old mentality to fool around with these. I find it ultimately and ridiculously childish to go around touching people and spilling sick stuffs just to make entertainment. At times, people do need respect and not went overboard. I seriously think you need to reflect what you did to me this afternoon! I'm seriously fucking pissed. Probably, I'm in the wrong of deceptive of just a casual prank but at times every nice person will eventually get crossed and flare up when things got messed.

Anyw, went NYP earlier and catchup with yl & xlm. People who I love the most, sneak to her lab again while waiting for her to end fyp. Dinner at Subway. She always full of craps and bullshits! Anyw, received an important phonecall this morning so I'm taking into consideration about it. Well, tomorrow is Friday which means another busy day. Every friday, no doubt be home really really late literally and can't finish Rj and sleep without showering. :(  He's so funny like my gay partner and always so obliged! Like my dog! lol! Okay, time to crash. Goodnights.

At times or most times, I'm an eddiot, really really silly eddiot. :( Especially today. I can't quite get over my silly acts after reflecting what I did literally and in fact I'm quite bothered. Let's start from the morning, OTW to school I was so engrossed watching some woman playing SuperMario and almost forgotten to alight at my current station and it was an impromptu act when I make my realization on that crucial second before the train doors was closing. I was caught in an embarrassment, I should say.

Secondly, OTW to toliet, I opened the door and spot a guy inside without his pants on. Precisely, it's occupied just that he forgotten to lock the door I guess? Once again, I was caught not once but twice with exaggerate embarrassment. Shocking, indeed. I should had nudge on the door or knock to check if it's occupied before I enter. I know it's not my fault. Thirdly, I should stay cool at all times because I just can't stop laughing at any things. Am I spastic or what?! I don't quite like myself, for today. I should consistently stay cool right?! With the great sense of directions, laughter-less smile, stay cool at all TIMES, reserved, studious type. Am I a fool or what!? Born to be a fool?! I guess, nobody really likes a fool like me. :( If only there's someone come to my face and tell me I'm sucha angel, alright there goes my bothers.

That's my rant of the day- iHATEME.

BTW, caught "IP MAN2" with Cyj & Juen right after school today, apparently it was spectacular! So far, the second best movie I've catch besides Date Night. Ha! While we was coming out from the cinema, I guess it was in total darkness as Juen was standing queuing to go out and one of this Malay guy added in a shocking shrill. Then this woman goes like " WTF". Damn funny and I burst my laughter eventually after toliet I still laugh. Then Cyj and I was laughing! During movie, her stomach growl and page for her! Oh gosh, damn funny to the maxi! I laughed.Again. She called when I'm in the toilet with her but I was assuming that's not for me when I realising she was actually calling for me! I laughed. Thrice. Triple classics tales from this woman! But still, they make my day goes boom boom pow.

PS: If only there's a friend or anybody who come to me and tell me how great my personailty was. It would be a console. Because, I feel like am an eddiot at all times laughing and making no temper. Why can't I be mad?!!

(with my girls, at LM's house steamboat. & it was splendid especially the chat at late night and i really miss that!)

Mondayblues: 3rd May 2010,

 it is cliche but somehow I felt it aptness of true for such there's always someone stood out there paying especially attentive to you when you speaks despite the cohort of masses and noise produced which in turns made me feel a millions of heartfelt.